Still alive, still (kind of) working.

Occasionally writing these days. Mostly am being a wife, a Mom, a student and a pregnant lazy person... meaning I'm taking more naps than usual and eating more than I should. Eh. Pregnancy doesn't last forever.

Sometimes I sit down to write and everything flows and I'm smiling and it's wonderful. Other times I don't even want to open up the lap top, I just want to eat and go to bed.

But I will continue. I hope I look back on these slow writing days and laugh. I hope one day I have the time and energy to sit for three hours or more without interruptions or fatigue and just put words on pages.

For now, I will chip away at the book and continue to spend most of my energy being a wife and mom. I know I will never regret giving them the best of me, and I know they love me for it.

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A love story

Once upon a time, a 20-year-old female sailor was almost arrested for violating article 134 of the Uniform Code of Military Justice. What was she doing, you ask? Well, she was conducting in a nature that would bring discredit to the Navy. More specifically? She was drinking under the age of 21. Even more specifically? She was drinking a bottle of Bud Light, with approximately 8-10 other young sailors, in a friend’s barracks room. This young girl knew she shouldn’t have been drinking underage. But she wasn’t very bright, and was not thinking of the consequences of her actions if she were to be caught, so she did it anyway. That evening, a young male sailor on duty (he was a master-at-arms in the Navy, in other words-military police) was patrolling the barracks. He’ll tell you now, if you ask him, that he was bored and looking for something to do. Well, he found something. He found the aforementioned girl and her ...

I don’t drink anymore. But nothing has changed! (Except everything.)

Hi, my name is Christy, and I don’t drink. I used to. I used to drink kinda frequently, actually. But now I don’t. No, I didn’t hit some ‘rock bottom’ moment, like drinking and driving and almost killing myself (or someone else.) I didn’t stop taking care of my responsibilities while drinking. I still woke up and took care of my kids every day. I just decided that it was getting to be too much. I was starting to dislike the way I felt. And I quit. I don’t drink anymore, but nothing has changed. (Except everything.) I used to be the first to say, with a laugh, “I don’t WANT to parent without alcohol!” Parenting is hard. My children are gifts that I thank God for daily, but the work involved with raising them is the hardest work I’ve ever done. ‘Mommy wine’ culture is a thing, and I was all about it. (well, I wasn’t so much a wine girl as a beer girl, but nonetheless I bought all of the 'mommy juice' sentiment that came with drinking.) I would tell myself that I deser...

Consolation

It’s nearly been a year since my Mom died. It’s been a quick year, but a hard year. Grief is not something that you can really prepare for or understand. It doesn’t make sense. It isn’t linear, there is no timeline that fits all. It’s unpredictable. I’ll be fine one moment. Better than fine, even. Happy. Then the next as I’m doing something mundane like putting away groceries in my pantry the grief comes at me quick and the next thing I know, I’m sobbing on my kitchen floor. Then I get up and I’m okay again. It’s weird. I can say it honestly now- this past year has been the toughest I have experienced emotionally. It forced what I tried to bury up to the surface and made me look reality in the face. The reality is not pretty and it is not what I want and it will always be something that I wish were different. But it will never be different. I accept that. I do. I accept that, but it’s painful. I didn’t start writing this to talk about the pain though. I wanted to share the ...

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