We just ended a season of little league baseball and
softball. Well, regular season ended. We just started All Stars for our youngest.
Having multiple kids in sports is B-U-S-Y. We were at the
ball fields every night of the week and most of the day each Saturday. The youngest
had a few different tournaments, and if you know the softball tournament world
you understand that you live at the ball fields those weekends. Games on Friday
night, all day Saturday and all day Sunday.
The baby’s second to last regular season tournament was exhausting.
It was a hot weekend, my husband was working nights the first part so I was
solo with all of the kids at the fields the first night, and then the second
day I was literally at the fields for 9 hours. There was no time for laundry,
no time to get ready for school for the week, no time for the rest I desperately
wanted. Getting home that night we hardly had the energy for showers before it
was time to go to bed. The next day would be a Sunday and another full day of
games- however the first wasn’t an early start and we didn’t need to be at the
fields till after 11am! I hit my pillow that Saturday night and thought to
myself if we skip church this one weekend, God will understand. We need to
sleep in! We are all exhausted. Missing one week won’t hurt.
I seriously wrestled with this thought. But after waking the
next day, I got all of us up for church like every other Sunday. We
packed clothes to change into for after church (we'd have to change in our van because the time in between Mass and
getting to the fields wouldn’t be enough to get home.) We hurried to get ready.
We hurried to pack a cooler and snacks for the field. We hurried out the door
to drive to church.
Kneeling in the pews that morning at our parish, the busy and
the rush and the go go go all slowed down. I had been so stressed, and so worn out, but
all of that worry and that weary disappeared. I realized how badly I needed to be
at Mass then. My real rest, my real rejuvenation, comes when I’m grounded in the
Truth of who I am, who we are as a family and what our foundation is. I thanked
God that He didn’t let me listen to the lie that told me I didn’t need to be
there. I would have missed out that day on the only real source of peace there
is in this world.
I’ve been listening to the Catechism in a Year podcast and
the other day Fr. Mike talked about how many of us DESIRE Heaven but most of us
don’t CHOOSE Heaven. That resonated with me. How often have I said that I of
course want an eternity in Heaven, but I haven’t really been choosing God now? I’ve
been so bold to assume I have the time to choose Him later. To do better later.
To love my neighbor more later. To ask for forgiveness later, as if that time
is guaranteed to me. I’ve been “too busy” to choose all of that now. But the truth is that I need to put first things first, no matter what my schedule looks like.
So. I know you’re busy. But if you haven’t prayed today,
here is your sign! If you haven’t been to church in a while, maybe there is a big
reason you opened this blog post today. This world will throw all sorts of
distractions your way, but none of them will fulfill you in the way you were
created for. True love really does exist.
You are loved so immensely and you deserve to live in that
love, every single day. But this has to be your choice. You’ll have to give your permission
because true love isn’t forced.
Again, I know you’re busy. But this is important. Like, life
and death importance. For real.
If you’ve read this far, please know I have prayed for you!
Until next time . . .
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