Thoughts from a writing mom

Just put the almost 7-month-old down.  Started working on the book a bit while nursing.  Why not?  One day I will laugh and tell my kids how I worked on this book while being a Mom. Literally.  Nursing and all.  Took a short break to write this post and eat a bowl of late night cereal.  Short post, but wanted to update something.  Track that I'm still working on this project.  Oh, and to say big thanks to Pinterest for the motivational quotes. :)

23,000 words.  Considering I started writing my book in January of 2010, that may seem pathetic.  But, to be quite honest, I've taken several months off.  Raising kids takes over and I let this go sometimes.  BUT I do return.  And I will continue to return and finish.  I want this too badly.  My kids are three, almost two, and six months old.  It's chaotic around here.  I'm trying my best to be a great wife, great mother, great homemaker.  And it is fulfilling.  Truly, it is enough.  Still I feel strongly about writing.  I feel strongly about the book I'm working on and the impact it could have one people.  I also have an idea for my second book already that I'm looking forward to beginning.  Must. Finish. First. Book. First.  And enjoy myself in the process.  And occasionally blog, just so there is a record somewhere of this process that gets stuck in the internet world forever.  :)

Occasionally writing these days.  Mostly am being a wife, a Mom, a student and a pregnant lazy person...  meaning I'm taking more naps than usual and eating more than I should.  Eh.  Pregnancy doesn't last forever.  Sometimes I sit down to write and everything flows and I'm smiling and it's wonderful.  Other times I don't even want to open up the lap top, I just want to eat and go to bed. But I will continue.  I hope I look back on these slow writing days and laugh.  I hope one day I have the time and energy to sit for three hours or more without interruptions or fatigue and just put words on pages.  For now, I will chip away at the book and continue to spend most of my energy being a wife and mom.  I know I will never regret giving them the best of me, and I know they love me for it.

So sleepy these days.  I suppose it's because I'm pregnant.  I am about to work a bit on the book before I crash though.  I need to, I'm almost to 19,000 words and once I get to 20 I feel like I will have made a pretty good start.  I need to finish, I need to send it out to agents.  I need to be able to do this for a living.  I have had this desire since I was a little girl, but it means so much more now.  My husband is working so hard for us, I want to give back to him.  My kids are my whole world, I want to be able to provide whatever they need.  I want to show them that they can do anything they really want to do.  So.  Off I go to get some work done.

I've yet to let anyone know about this blog.  Still not sure when I'll do that, but this is on the internet forever anyways, right??  I realize it's been a very long time since my last post.  I haven't been writing much, it's depressing.  And completely my fault.  I can honestly say that I have just been lazy.  I still want this, I still feel a need to finish my book...so I have to stop neglecting my work.  Starting today. I do kind of have an excuse for my laziness though.  I said earlier our family had news and this isn't exactly shocking...but...we're pregnant with our third.  Yep.  My oldest is two, my youngest is almost 11 months, and I'm due January 2nd with another baby.  We're busy.  It's chaotic and it will be even more chaotic.  However, we know just how blessed we are.  And I'm getting tons of future writing material.  :) This is it for now.  Got to get back to that book I'm wanting so badly t...

It's been the slowest couple of writing weeks since January, when I decided to finish this 'project' I started the January prior.  Why has it been slow?  A couple of reasons actually...first...big news for our family.  Very big.  Can't share just yet, but I will...later.  And second, I got some kind of food poisoning, or stomach virus, or something really bad.  I was very sick.  Very, very sick.  It was not a fun time for me. But, I'm over it, I'm ready to make more progress with my book.  I'm thinking I may even need to share this blog with some family or friends.  Isn't it silly that I haven't yet?  The majority of my friends and family have NO IDEA that I'm even writing a book.  I have no idea what I'm afraid of.  I'm hoping somehow this blog will help me with all of this...

As I type this my youngest is in my arms.  For some reason, lately, my kids aren't going to bed on time.  For the past few nights it's been rough and by the time they are finally asleep I want to be asleep as well....so not a lot of work is getting done on the book.  Not that I'm not thinking about it, because I am.  It's on my mind a lot. The kiddos, though, they are the priority.  Always will be.  I have to admit my frustration gets me sometimes, but then all it takes is for the little one to smile at me or the oldest to say "Mommy, look!" as she holds up a paper she scribbled on with crayon and my worries go away.  I know taking care of them is my most important work. Can I get this thing written before my kids are grown??  I have to believe I can.  :)